Missing Loved Ones :(

OK a emotional rant … (keep in mind I’m pmsing)

Well the last week I have been missing friends and family I don’t get to see or have not seen in a long time.

Ange is away in Italy and agh damn it I miss being able to call her when I’m all (^*#&T$(@#) like this. Some times with Ange she will kick my ass when I need it and hug me when I need that like any good friend should and right now I need BOTH damn it..lol

I miss my man and think about him alot some days prolly more then I should trying to be busier so that he doesn’t cross my mind as much as he does. There are alot of things I miss about him… his smell his touch his presence.

I miss my dad and family out west agh how I ache to see them I wish I had a ton of money to visiting them all the time. I have missed alot of time with them and the older I get the harder it is not to think of them daily. I have to get there before the next few years I need to hug them and talk to them to sit on that porch I could see for miles from when I was little to smell that fresh mountain air and be one with so many happy memories.

I miss my son too… yes I see him but I miss him living here. I miss the day to day conversations and me being in his life the way I was. I know I did a great job raising him and the years he has had with his dad have not wrecked that THANK GOD. Maybe when we move he can stay with us more instead of every other weekend.

I’m truely blessed to have the friends and family that are in my life daily and care about me as much as I care about them just miss them from time to time is all and it is harder some days then others… yesterday was hardest it has been in years… Might be cause it is my sons 16th Birthday today and I’m feeling old and nostalgic.

So today hug and tell those that mean so much to you that you love them and are glad they are there for you!

Julia

~ by ravengirlphotography on May 7, 2007.